Identity Lost

Turning back in life I realize my identity has been fully defined as a wife and mother - rather than just plain me. There have been days I have longed to be just me - the plain old me; but in reality without my family around I am just a blank space, a void, a null, a nil - whatever you call it...

Nothing else seems to matter - no birthday parties or friends company or church picnics or garage sales; it is no joy attending alone... Even the things I have always wanted to do but never could get around to, has to now wait till they are back - so that I will have the excuse I don't have the time to get to it...

Can't wait for them to hurry back home; to help me regain my identity.