Aug 23, 2012

What have you got?

Nine years ago on my birthday (August 10th) I'd spoken to my Papa last. Four days later Papa passed away.

Life has lost it's luster since then. The sky appears a shade greyer the grass a tint paler, my heart somewhat harder and my head a bit heavier (I guess it is a byproduct of the harder heart).

Overall life as I knew it is sadly changing.

Living, loving and laughing came natural to me then; now it takes effort. To draw comparison from Winnie-the-Pooh it's like going from a jumpy jolly care free Tigger to a grumpy, moody Eeyore is how it is trending.

Pause, clarify, repeat was how our conversations went then unlike the hurried to-the-point "conversations" of now...

I feel stranded at times with everyone rushing around me, in their own course of life, with less time to talk, lesser still to listen and none at all for the details.

Often times I find myself rushing too, rushing thru' the day's events, rushing thru' traffic, rushing thru' conversations...Why such a hurry? Where am I going? No clue.

Then I was a child, now I have grown; that's the only reasoning I could think of.

So today for a change I am going to kick back - all the way back - and relax. So, tell me what have you got? Whatever I missed please bring it on!

~ NRIGirl


KParthasarathi said...

“Nature has not intended mankind to work from eight in the morning until midnight without that refreshment of blessed oblivion which, even if it only lasts twenty minutes, is sufficient to renew all the vital forces.”
Learn to have short naps even amidst the bustlle of work.You will be in great company with Winston Churchil,Napoleon,John Kennedy,Edison and our own Deve Gowda.
You will be surprised at the surge of energy.Good to know you have decided to relax.I liked your post.

NRIGirl said...

Thank you @KP! Appreciate your comments. These days that's exactly what I do - I get up from my desk to have lunch elsewhere - just to avoid depriving myself of the simple joys of life such as looking at the segments of life inside those walls ...

NRIGirl said...

I meant to say inside the next door highrise apartment walls...

Bikramjit said...

First of all happy birthday , I did not know else i would have surly wished on the day.

Time teaches us a lot and experiences make us what we are now.
Good to know you are relaxing more now .. Take care


NRIGirl said...

Thank you Bikram! It is always a pleasure hearing from you; your comments never fail to make me smile. Thank you!

Anonymous said...

I think you feel like this because you are a working mother. When you retire and babysit your grandchild, you will slow down and be able to relax. You will then know unconditional love for that child. Life will be slower when you retire, trust me.

Punam said...

I don't think anyone can comprehend the loss of a loved one.. but yes, it is dreadful and living with it the toughest..
Good to know that you are trying to cope and the best way to do that, is to realize and appreciate the presence of little joys as you call them, in life...
Sometimes, even a fluttering leaf on a tree makes you soak in the joy of the breeze..
And you are on the right path..
Take care..
and Belated Happy Birthday..

~ Punam

NRIGirl said...

Valid point @Gigi! But retirement is a long way to go... :)

Aha @Punam! I was beginning to wonder if you had completely forgotten the blog world. You have proved me wrong! Glad to hear from you.

Punam said...

Yes sure .. would love to see you at my blog space dear.. have been blogging at WP.. and you have been missed there :(

anilkurup said...

A similar unsure state of mind was seen in Balachandran's post too.
But I wonder if you are unsure. Perhaps leaving aside all the manic things and an escape to oblivion for a while would be good .

eye in the sky said...

Happy happy happy birthday! Here's wishing you oodles of laughters and tons of inspiration, and good health.

As for your dad's passing away, it's never easy. No one ever prepares you for these things. But we move on. I do, thinking my Dad's looking down on me smiling. And it comforts me. :)

NRIGirl said...

Thank you thank you thank you @Eye!

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