For the past few days I haven't been myself. I fear I hear my heart beat, feel feverish, talk nonsense, tear up... The problem? It's just that Rachel is going to middle school in the Fall. I can't take it lightly...
We were just married and just had our first child and just the second child and just the third and just bought a house and just settled in a job and how soon....? Rachel to pass out of her elementary school...? No something has gone wrong somewhere... It is defintely not possible... Where did the time fly? What was I doing all these years? Sleeping?!
While I haven't even forgotten my elementary school days how is it even possible that my daughter has passed that stage too?! Just like how my fifth grade only lives in my memory, it has become a "past" for Rachel too. How did I allow this? Why didn't I pause that running clock? It's all my fault - I shouldn't have changed the batteries... If only I hadn't, this wouldn't have happend... Now what will I do?
If I don't wake up now the next ten years will also slip by very fast or even faster.... My children's childhood will become a "past"... They will be out of college and it would be time to marry them off... It makes my heart heavy and brings tears in my eyes... If only there is a way to hold the time still... a little while longer... Is there?!
"My times are in your hands" Psalm 31:15
"My days are swifter than a weaver's shuttle" Job: 7:6
"My days are swifter than a runner" Job: 9:25
Trust in the Lord; not in men
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